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May 29, Voices of the Void

I am not sure what to write for this blog entry, I have been struggling a bit with my new medication so it has been difficult getting the creative juices flowing. I also haven't been sleeping well so I lowkey feel like a husk. Hopefully some productivity this weekend will turn things around for me. I have been slacking on my hobbies again, i have gotten a new book and haven't even touched it yet. A lot of things on my mind as of late. Maybe these meds are messing me up more than I realize. Anyway the new Backrooms movie is really good, it exceeded my expectations. I also have been playing a lot of VotV recently, a slow-burn horror game about processing alien signals from space, it's been strangely comforting during this time in my life. I think I am just in a weird spot right now, hopefully my next report will be a little more straightforward and uplifiting.

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May 20, Winds of Change

Recently I have been doing a lot of introspection, as I have been struggling spiritually with who I am. I am not quite sure how to put it into words, but I have expressed it on my SpaceHey Blog pretty well I think. Long story short, I am not comfortable being aligned with the male sphere of influence anymore. I don't wish to get too personal, but I have a lot more thinking to do about my identity. I realized this while enjoying a nice breeze during a picnic, strange how things like that hit you. In other news, the weather has been great but I have seriously been slacking on outdoor work due to the yellowjacket hive right outside my front door. I keep forgetting to spray it. I think I have also been slacking on maintaining friendships, online ones specifically. I have been on a couple outings with IRL friends recently and those are nice, but I am always hesitant to spontaneously invite people over to my house to hang out. I inadvertantly isolate myself and is becoming a drain. Perhaps with some more diligence I will find some resolve.

May 07, Dimly Lit Study

I write from the confines of my humble study as the rain pummels my windows. My office is not a very unique place yet, but I have plans to turn this space into something truly special. I wish to eventually have enough books to fill a few bookshelves, and a lounging chair in which I can quietly puff on a pipe while pouring over some Shakespeare. The lights in this room are also a problem, the previous owners installed commercial style fluorescent lights in the ceiling, not conducive to a moody library atmosphere. I am very much open to ideas from other people, and if possible I will upload progress images. In other news, spring cleaning has been going exceedingly well, I feel as if I can finally breathe freely in this house. The rains have come and the final frost of the season is behind us, so this weekend I shall finally take hoe to dirt. THIS WEEKEND. I promise.

Apr 29, Upcoming Projects

Short entry today, just wanted to be a little transparent about the site and my projects. Now that I am hope-pilled, maybe I'll get off my ass and actually write some essays and put some seeds in the ground. In fact... I WILL. Get some recipes too. If you (yes you, the reader) have a specific essay topic you would like me to explore, or any other questions for that matter, feel free to shoot me an email in the links tab!

Apr 23, An Era of Hope

Netizens! Due to the continuous improvement in the weather, and the curation of healthier habits, I have ushered in a new era of hope for myself. I am now less susceptible to rage-bait than ever before, the tendrils of the Meta Corporation have little effect on me, and the sun shines brighter every day. I still struggle with keeping up with my hobbies, but it is something that is being improved upon, so I won't totally blame myself. I don't have much else to say, just a quick update I suppose. Goal for this week is to get some intensive spring cleaning done, and get some more seeds started. Perhaps this weekend I will take myself on a little adventure...

Apr 10, Parisian Dreams

This week has been a good one, with the exception of one thing; my heart desperately aches for the motherland, that being Alsace-Lorraine France! I was struck by inspiration, from where I am unsure, to travel to Europe. It is absolutely imperative that I venture beyond the borders of my current world, I feel I am going a little stir-crazy. The goal, as a few friends and I have decided, is to spend a few weeks slowly exploring the Netherlands, through the Rhineland, and then northern France. I know it may sound cliche these days, but ideally this would be more of a cultural immersion trip than anything else. Unfortunately, this will take months of planning and saving, but the dream is within reach. Aside from my over-imagination, the rest of the week has been fairly tame. My seedlings have grown rapidly, and I worry that they will outgrow the seed starter container before the ground is ready for sowing. The weather during the day is steadily improving, but at night the frost still creeps across my yard, preventing cultivation of any kind. The pen pal business is slower than expected, which is not necessarily a bad thing, but it leaves me wondering whether I am being ignored or the letters are just taking their time.

Mar 30

On Friday, a friend and I went to go see a play, Death of a Salesman. It was incredible! The Death of a Salesman, starring Peter Jacobson (Dr. Taub from House MD), is a tragedy about the pitfalls of the modern man. Though originally set in the late 1940's, the themes of the play are still incredibly relevant to life today, truly a timeless performance. The main character, Willy Loman, is a travelling salesman in the northeast who is on the precipice of disillusion with his job. He desperately wants to maintain the idealistic vision that a man's reputation still counts for something in the workplace, but deep down he understands that his life does not align with that of human nature. This is shown throughout the play with his desire to grow a garden, against the advice of his wife who reminds him that nothing will grow where they live (Brooklyn). This garden, ultimately becomes symbolic of his death. His internal struggle is also reflected in the behavior of his two sons, more specifically Biff Loman. Biff is a more wild spirit than his father, travelling the country doing odd jobs that ultimately don't pay very well. He tries to appease his father with an attempt to get in the business of salesmanship, but fails due to his non-conformist nature. This is a major point of contention between Willy and his sons. Willy wants his boys to be great, as any father would, and constantly boasts how far they will make it to his coworkers. But, he fails to fully understand that his son's version of success is vastly different than the version perpetuated by modern society. Something that constantly comes up in the play is Willy's struggle with money. Even though this play was set nearly 80 years ago, many of the struggles are more relevant than ever. For example, at one moment in the beginning of the play, Willy complains to his wife that the refrigerator broke as soon as they paid it off, and comments that they manufacturer likely did it on purpose. This has never been more true than today, with tech companies selling products designed to be obsolete within a few years of purchasing. In all honesty, if Willy was transported to the life of an average person today, it would be a satirical and wildly exaggerated version of his reality. Overall, I really loved the performance. From the overarching story, all the way down to the prop usage, the entire experience was wonderful, not to mention the raw emotion portrayed by the actors. I seriously doubt that any play in the near future will be able to surmount this performance.

Mar 25

Last week I took a trip to the glorious Home Depot and got myself some peat seed starters, and I planted some carrots, cabbage, lavender, thyme, rosemary, parsely, beets, and onions if I recall correctly. These guys should be germinating within the next month, and I have some other seeds that I plan on starting closer to spring so that they all line up in time for the last frost. Additionally, I did some work on my project car, and finally got her running after over a year of sitting in my driveway. She purrs like a kitten, now I just have to get her registered. I have also started reading a new book, House of Leaves, by Mark Z. Danielewski. A pretty interesting read from my novice understadning, so I am pretty excited to read it and talk all about it here. Last but not least, I have finally found some pen-pals to converse with, and I hope to relish in those letters very soon.

Mar 19

So now that the weather is (kinda) finally getting warmer, I have begun planning my garden, but because I have procrastinated so long, I need to start that stuff this week otherwise it will be too late. Last frost is supposed to be in the first half of May, and if I want to plant stuff in the ground by then I will have to start the seeds now. So, I plan on going to the hardware store ideally today or tomorrow and getting some stuff and starting the seeds. My latest batch of mead also should be done by now, so I'll have to find time to bottle this weekend. Other than that I have just really been longing for a pen pal, I need to get over my fear of putting myself out there.

Mar 10

Okay, I know I haven't posted since last month, I won't go into too many details but I have been dealing with my mental health. Good news though is that the weather is greatly improving and I have a lot more motivation to partake in my hobbies! I have been doing a pretty good job of staying off of mainstream social media, though due to the current state of the world, specifically the United State's foreign policy, I have found myself as an unwilling subject to the 24hr news cycle. I don't like being a doomer all the time but i find myself gravitating towards that realm often. But, like I mentioned earlier, the weather has been a lot better, and hopefully I'll get to do some exploring soon.

Feb 04

Hey sorry for the recent inactivity, contractors have been visiting the house very often and work has been pretty hectic, but I am not going to give up on this project, its good for me lol. I really need to start some writing and getting recipes down, as I cant start the seedlings yet, but other than that life is pretty normal. My goal for this week is to get outside more and meet some of the other townsfolk in a natural manner. I have also created a SpaceHey profile that you can check out in the contacts tab (please friend me), there I will be posting more personal blogs and more nebulous thoughts and feelings compared to my creative works here.

Jan 30

Finally got the other pages linked!!! Gonna work on getting some actual content uploaded to the site, and to get the contact page fully fleshed out. It's been way too cold to even consider the garden stuff right now, but perhaps some writing will appear soon.

Jan 28

Hey sorry for the lack of updates, I've been working on deciding what I actually want to display here, ideally garden progress, creative writing, and some general philosophy, perhaps some recipes (although I am nowhere near a professional chef and am 100% self taught). I would also like to include some kind of chatroom/discussion board but I am not skilled enough to impliment something like that.....

Jan 25

Snow is really coming down out here, but hopefully the power is on long enough to get some more features included on the site. I need to figure out how to scan typewritten documents and create a gallery/post board asside from just editing in html.

Jan 24

Founded this website! I am so excited to be able to use this as a place to share my creativity! still a lot of work to do though (idk anything about coding, this is hard)

Jan 24

this is a test of the blog feature